another lonely day...

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 04:17:34 GMT

4 hours and i'll be on my way to DCLA! pretty much.

i've just been sitting here the last hour or so listening to music and eating ramen noodles (i made them the "right way" tonight deej). i'm starting to feel really sick cause i wasnt too hungry to begin with. but since i dont really get to eat 3 normal meals a day i just keep eating till i go to bed or something. not really but whatev.

so this last week or so me and deej have been hanging out with josh and jr a lot. which has turned out to be really good :). even thought josh is going to camp for 3 weeks now. crazy crazy!

this weekend will be really fun and i'm glad i'll be taking a break from work. gah its getting so annoying! i love all this new music!!!!!!

ok well i think i'm gonna stop eating and probably go call josh or something.

oh yeah but i forgot to say that me and deej went to sundown last night which was ok. we saw cam who was being rude but i dont really care anymore. but we did see ben and cole as well and hung out with them until we left early and went to see josh again. then we went to coles house to hang out with him and ben and cliff for like 2 seconds. yeah so thats about all! bye!

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 03:57:00 GMT

i love ben harper

so now that i cant go to bed any time before 1 or 2 in the morning i'm probably going to be updating in this thing a little bit more. and i'm ok with that. its good therapy or something. plus since deej has been gone i havent had anyone to hang out with cause no one thinks to call me. or even seems to want to hang out with me.

today was my first day of work and it went well. not too stressful. i'm just glad i have tomorrow off cause i'm so tired. at least it will make the week go by faster.

i was thinking tonight that summer is almost halfway over which is CRAZY. i still have to finish my apush summer reading and it takes me like a day to read 2 pages! i like history but not american history. sorry. i wish i didnt worry about school when i'm not even in it right now. ahhh

so anyways i think i'm gonna go get a capri sun or something. maybe a little snack

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 05:03:28 GMT

i havent updated in years but i decided that i really need to vent (which is basically what livejournal is for) but its almost 1:00 so i cant call anyone cause i dont want to wake whoever i chose to call.

but yeah i'm really frustrated and confused and sad...but at least i have one thing to be happy about. that, however, is complicated as well. what i really want to do is call a person and just bitch and say grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr because its this persons fault that i'm feeling all these things.

i need to talk to someone about something (sorry i'm not using any names) but i dont know if i will even be able to because i just have trouble saying things that i really dont want to say. a lot of people do, right?

so i'm guessing that not many people will read this because i stopped using it so long ago but that is a good thing cause i really dont want anyone to read it. but you know that feeling where you just have to say something no matter who its to or where you write it down?? yeah thats why i wrote this. but whatevvvvvvvv. i'm guessing its kind of obvious how tired i am cause i'm just rambling.

on a happier note i have had a very fun weekend which is good :)

arghhhhh

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 23:52:49 GMT

so i have nothing to do and i was just reading a bunch of other's livejournals and they were really getting on my nerves cause all we really use these fucking things for is to complain! ahh its so annoying!

yes i do realize i am complaining too but fuck it

i need some new cds cause i'm sick of listening to my old ones

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 21:45:07 GMT

i should be working on my english homework..but i havent read livejournals in forever and after reading them i decided to update. i'm so good at procrastinating :) oh and english is getting better..i enjoy it somewhat.

today was a so-so day. the talent show was pretty awesome-everyone was great. i'm glad tomorrow is thursday cause then it will be friday and then it will be saturday and me and deej are going shopping! at west town! and we have NO money! but the bad thing about tomorrow is that i have a geometry test and i seem to be having some trouble in that class. oh well.

our orchestra concert is next tuesday eek! everyone should be looking pretty stylish in the new dresses yeah!

i'm having confused/mixed emotions..but everything is going to work out and i will be fine..fall break is in 2 weeks.

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 01:56:32 GMT

wow so i havent updated in FOREVER!

i'm sittin here at jimmys house. i have to leave soon. blah dont want to go home

i'm soo very happy its a 4 day weekend but i have a paper to write and some music to practice for orchestra. school is really stressing me out this year. i hate english with a passion

umm i dont really have anything else to talk about. no one would want to read it.

I LOVE YOU JIMMY!

Sun, 01 May 2005 03:47:49 GMT

There are angels in your your angles.
There's a low moon caught in your tangles.
There's a ticking at the sill
There's a purr of a pidgeon to break the still of day
As long we go drowning,
down we go away
And darling,
We go drowning.
Down we go away.
Away.

There's a tough word, on your crossword.
There's a bed bug nipping a finger.
There's a swallow, there's a calm
Here's a hand to lay on your open palm today.
As long we go drowning,
down we go away.
And darling,
We go drowning.
Down we go away.
Away.

There are angels in your angles.
There's a low moon caught in your tangles.

today turned out to be a wonderful day :) i love you so much jimmy!

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 22:22:27 GMT

yesterday was 3 months for jimmy and i! :) :)

this whole month has been kinda different for me. i havent felt as happy as usual and i think i've cried at least 2 or 3 times a week. but what scares me is that i dont know why i cry. i dont know why i get so upset. the smallest things have been getting to me and i feel like i'm ruining things because of my bitchy attitude. i dont want to ruin things at all. i want them to stay just the way they were before my whole freakin month of pms came along. i'm really sorry if i've made things worse between us

i love you jimmy

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 01:53:10 GMT

wahoo! talkin to deidre on the phone!

i havent updated in forever. i'm sittin here at jimmys house..i love him, love him, love him.

so anyways, i went to a soccer game tonight. maryville won. yeah i sure was excited ha. but jimmy played really well tonight!

prom is next week..i hope its fun and i hope my face doesnt look like shit as it has been for the past week or so.

ok tomorrow is gonna be a fun day. i have to work out at the building for about 3 hours building that stupid fence.(thats not the fun part..except for getting paid) then i'm gonna go pick up deidre and heather and we're going to heathers house to hang out for a while. i havent been there in months so i'm really excited about that. good memories at her house *sigh*. later that night we are going to west town for a while and then back to heathers to spend the night(maybe. still havent asked).

on sunday me deidre jimmy and alex are probably gonna go to the park and play tennis for a while. i'm starting to love that sport..even though i really suck at it. my first lesson with deidre didnt go so well. but thats ok.

ok so thats all i feel like saying tonight
*i love you*

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 16:11:32 GMT

so today is easter and its a beautiful day outside. i'm loving it. i hope this easter is better than last years. i'm sure it will be cause mikeys home! :)

so about my weekend

on friday i woke up around 9 and called jimmy to wake him up just to be mean heh heh. actually i didnt mean to wake him up *sorry jimmy* but anyways he came over and we sat and waited for michael and danielle to come home cause the 4 of us were going to go up to gatlinburg for the day. we waited forever and finally left at like 130 or 2..i cant remember exactly. but anyways, the drive up there was beautiful. i swear it took about 2 hours to get there though! when we finally did, we ate at subway yum. they had one of those claw machines in there and the 4 of us spent about 7 dollars trying to get stuff out of it. jimmy got me the stuffed bunny that i wanted :) we just kinda walked around for a while until we got to the place with the mechanical bull, which michael had to ride. it was pretty funny! he did a good job too. then he made jimmy ride it..oh gosh. haha he actually stayed on it for a long time too. ah! i was sooooo close to beating him at pool but he had to go and knock the 8 ball in with his hand(on accident). so we're just gonna say that i won anyways..cause i would have ;) on our way home we stopped at jimmy's grandparents house and rode the 4 wheelers. michael got on this little one that jimmy's 10 year old cousin uses. it was so funny watching him on that thing. it was like the clowns in the circus that ride those little bikes. haha me and danielle just stood there cracking up the whole time. we actually got to talk about some stuff..normally we dont have real conversations. i really enjoyed it.
friday was such a good day :) *i love you*

last night danielles parents invited us out to dinner at this place called Mango. the food was..interesting. but it was still good. danielles mom gave me 20 dollars for eating a mussel! it was awesome! i got to meet danielles sisters nancy and terry. i really liked nancy. shes so different from anyone i've ever met. so anyways, we ate for about 3 hours..i got incredibly bored and wanted to come home to spend time with jimmy before he had to go home. but it didnt work out :( i'm hoping hes gonna come over today before he goes climbing

ok well thats all i guess.

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 04:14:59 GMT

so i havent updated in awhile..i guess i'll start with thursday

after school my mom and i left for summerville, south carolina to visit my cousins. on friday we went to charleston and did some shopping..i found my prom dress yay! saturday we went shopping again in mt. pleasant. it reminded me so much of the beach trips and of sarah. i miss her so much but at least shes having fun. it was soooo beautiful in summerville. i really wish i could live there. it was great to see kelsey and sean again..and jenny and brian of course. haha their dog roscoe was adorable! he always came and sat with me on the couch :) we came home on sunday..i was ready to come home. i missed jimmy too much :/ and i had some pretty bad dreams while i was there..

i just got back from nashville today. my mom and i went shopping again so i'm pretty much broke. but i did get a lot of new clothes yay!

michael is home for about a week now. and guess what he did...got a tatoo. yeah thats right. its a cross with the date 3-1-04 written inside of it. thats the day he left for rehab. hes been gone for more than a year. its hard for me to believe..i'm really glad hes home now

i've been with jimmy every day that we have been in town. its been wonderful :) i'm gonna hate going back to school now cause we wont get to be together as much. i have a feeling that this summer with him will be wonderful too. *i love you*

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 01:39:16 GMT

so i havent updated in a while..normally all my entries are depressing but i've been really happy lately so i guess i just havent had anything to complain about!

things with jimmy are still going good :):) haha i've gotten him addicted to the oc now..its great! i went home with him today..we went and sat on his hammock for a little while and that was really relaxing :) yeah, except for when he just about pushed me off..on to the concrete..would have hurt.

well sarah left for australia yesterday :( she'll be back at the end of july..i already miss her. i got to spend all weekend with her though(except friday night) so that was VERY fun and entertaining. especially singing dirty dancing songs in the car..oh good times, good times. and sitting in the target parking lot eating jelly bellys..which happened to make us sick.

mikey is coming home for a visit this weekend! he'll get here late tomorrow night..i'm pretty pumped about that!i think hes taking me to school on friday haha. hes also gonna be coming to the valentines concert on sunday..we sound terrible by the way..and then he has to leave right after its over. but we should have a good time!

so my car is not going to be going to montana after all! yes! just thought i'd let ya know..

well thats all i feel like saying tonight! sleep well

wonderful day

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 02:22:21 GMT

today was one of the best days i've had in a LONNNNNNGGGG time. all thanks to jimmy :)
let me share it with you!

so i woke up this morning and went to a climbing competition in knoxville with jimmy. i really had a good time! we left around 230 and went back to his house for a while :) he just about tickled me to death and i kinda kicked him in the nose..sorry bout that! but soon he had to take me back home cause today is pops's bday and we were having a little party at my house. so we pulled into my driveway and there was a very nice surprise...my car! i love it! so i drove jimmy around the neighborhood in it..ha probably scared him a bit. i swear i'm a good driver! well anyways we got back and sarah had arrived so i drove her around too. yeah then we ate supper and cake and had a wonderful time!

ahh i loved today. i wish it could happen all over again..

thank you for making me so happy jimmy :):)

grrrrrrrrrr

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 18:25:08 GMT

this weekend didnt turn out like i hoped it would. sarah became very ill so i couldnt go over there as planned and i've been stuck at home, just me and my dad, doing nothing. i hope you feel better soon sarah!

so yesterday i did something that i thought would be good for me..but i regret it now. i really dont know what to do.

i'm very unhappy today. maybe a milkshake would help. i guess i'll go make one and see.

tomorrow i have a test in math..hoping i wont fail it. we have 3 quizzes in spanish this week, also. that should be mucho divertido. hace frio hoy. (yeah, pretty sure thats wrong..) 20 degrees

well...i forgot what else i was going to say. damn.

i really cant wait till my mom comes home tomorrow. shes been in montana with michael. its warmer out there than it is here. crazy, huh?

soooo..thats all i have to say.

its all about the family..

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 02:05:06 GMT

i miss going to the beach every summer and renting a huge beach house with the WHOLE family.
i miss kiteboy(i'm sure you do too, sarah)
i miss the boardwalk
i miss being crazy and rhyming every word said with jessica and sarah
i miss sitting by the pool and watching jessica attempt to pole dance at night
i miss the little ice cream shop on the boardwalk that we went to everyday
i miss playing balderdash at night
i miss going out to eat, having to wait forever, and getting really pissed off
i miss that drive to target with michael jessica and sarah..sunroof and windows open, music turned up as loud as it could go, me and sarah dancing in the back seat
i miss buying matching towels and feeling stupid after we did it(cause why would we want the same towel)
i miss rolling michael and conors room
i miss getting sunburned and being made fun of by everyone
i miss staying up late at night talking about typical girl stuff
i miss seeing michael happy to be with the family(he is now, it was just those summers that were great..)
i miss mine and sarahs beach songs
i miss the long drives to the beach with jessica and sarah
i miss stopping at some bbq place to meet up with kelsey sean jenny and brian
i miss the crazy/gross yellow bbq sauce they had
i miss laying out on the beach with my music
i miss getting stuck in the elevator we had in one of our houses
i miss the excitment of first getting to our different house each summer
i miss those weeks away from home

i wish we could go back...

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 01:41:33 GMT

well my room is now finished and all that stuff..i like it, but it doesnt really look all that different to me..except the color and all. oh well i had fun painting with deidre and alli anyways.

today deidre and i went to play tennis. ha! that was a sight to see! deidre managed to fall..i have no clue how..it was just kinda random haha. but we did get better i think! it was tons of fun anyways. so after we played for like an hour, we walked up to texico and then to her church and went to youth. it was fun to see ben and robb. they just make me laugh! alli i dont know why you werent there! you should have been! sick, were we? i know how that one works ;)

ugh tomorrow i have to go back to school. i do NOT want to. not even just a little bit. i'm too tired to think about it right now plus it just angers me. what also angers me is my dad. ok so i'm 2 rooms away and i can hear him chewing. honestly you have to agree that its not normal to chew that loud. yeah, i know, i'm being a bitch about it.

so thats all i feel like saying tonight

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 02:56:33 GMT

well hey there!

so today has been very exciting...well at least it has been after school. deidre came home with me and then we went to home depot to just, ya know, hang out and stuff. actually we went to get paint cause we are painting my room!! yeah so i think we got some pretty hot pictures there..with the washing machine and the refridgerator. so then we went to the soup kitchen and deidre spilled her tea EVERYWHERE! or at least on her tray. and THEN!!! we went to food lion to get tons of food..and some cool mexican drinks. really they're mexican! hm yeah so we also got some energy drinks cause we have to get up early to paint tomorrow morning. omgah and then the funniest thing happened!

so anyways, we got home and got to work..sorta. we have been painting and listenin to some BSB!!! yeah, kinda sad cause we know like every word..

well i think we're gonna go watch some of the oc now and eat of course..so maybe, if you're lucky, we will update some more later
much love!

home improvement meets girls gone wild...

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 01:55:21 GMT

today alli came home with me after school cause we were gonna go to springbrook and work out...but we decided to be lazy so we watched napolean dynamite. "yeah we chat online for like 2 hours..so i guess you could say things are gettin pretty serious.." haha it was great. and then we ate, as usual, and then went to tear down all the flowery shit in my room. yeah so heres the story
i have this lattice/flower stuff nailed on my wall above my window and i was up on a chair with a hammer pulling it down. it was nailed in there pretty good so i yanked it really hard and it came out really fast so i screamed, dropped the hammer, and fell out of my chair onto my bed. during this alli was talking to matti on the phone and she screamed really loud and hung up on him..so yeah it was pretty exciting.
i also fell like 3 other times and hit my head really hard on some sharp corner..
oh yeah and we listened to some snoop..when da pimps in da crib ma!!!

yeah but thats pretty much all the excitement i've had since i started going back to school. ugh i hate it! especially wellness cause coach summey is an asshole. yeah plus i just hate gym, always have. oh and spanish is really really boring..i made a complete idiot out of myself in there today, but i tend to do that a lot

yeah i'm tired so thats all i have to say for tonight
sleep well everyone..

sorry...i just cant help it

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 02:42:52 GMT

well most of my day was fun. me and deidre went to knoxville and had a wonderful time shopping...of course who wouldnt have fun shopping?! yes, we were very proud of ourselves for all that we had accomplished today.

tonight i went over to my grandparents house for another dinner with the whole fam. my cousins from SC are here so it was fun to get to see them. i suppose i ruined everyones night though by my bad mood(according to my mom). she also said i tend to do that a lot...and there was really no use in me trying to explain why because usually she just tells me that my reason is stupid. yeah, thats my family for you..gotta love em. ha, right..?

i think part of the reason i was in a bad mood tonight is because it was the whole family, minus michael. i wish he could have stayed

i am excited about tomorrow night. i hope its fun

thats all i feel like saying tonight(i wont bitch any longer, sorry)

ahhhhhhh

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 22:39:17 GMT

i swear i'm gonna take the car and run over my dads stupid little bike until its in a million tiny pieces and he can never ride that piece of shit again

ok i was hoping that would help..but it didnt

where have you gone...?

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 18:58:32 GMT

so guess what everyone! michael gets to stay till wednesday! his plane didnt even show up at the airport..i dont know, it was all confusing to me. i'm just glad hes still here :)

today me and deidre are supposed to do something together yay! hopefully it will work out. i miss all of my friends..but i dont want to go back to school. i'm just not that excited about new classes. oh well, nothing i can do to change that so...

tonight im going to see oceans 12 with michael and danielle. i'm really surprised he asked me...and i'd rather not talk about what was going on when he asked me cause that was just awkward. but yeah i think he noticed how upset i was that hed been spending so much time with danielle...maybe he realized it when i was being a bitch at the airport yesterday. well ha ha ha

well i'm hoping that tomorrow me and alli can go to springbrook and work on our rockin bods. haha! god knows we need it! and i really need to go to knoxville this week to exchange some jeans and get my new cell phone hopefully! even though i have to pay for it

ok well i suppose thats all i have to say

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 01:02:26 GMT

merry christmas everyone

well i figured that since michael was coming home that this christmas would be much better than the past 2 years...well i was wrong. it was practically the same as last year with michael leaving as soon as possible to go with danielle. i know in my last entry i said i didnt mind...well wrong again. its really starting to upset me to the point where i cried forever and slept pretty much all day. not to be depressing on christmas or anything...
i also pissed off my parents by being a huge bitch..but hey nothing new there

there were some good things. last night was tons of fun. sarah picked me up around 230 and we went over to g and p's house. we had to wrap 2 more gifts...sooo we decided to make them fun and exciting! we put soap, toilet paper, some clothes, and old toothbrushes in michael and jessicas presents. haha it was great! you might have had to be there though. i love christmas eve..more than christmas morning. "granny panties!" *sudden pause and looks over nervously at grandmother* haha way to go sarah! we also watched some more home videos from when we were young(key word being 'young', matt)

well thats about all i've got to say..or atleast all i want to say

oh wait!
AHH! KRISTIN! I GOT THE OC DVD!!!!

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 01:20:16 GMT

the visit to tullahoma was not very fun or exciting and i'm glad to be home...i'll just leave it at that

so far things are going well with mikey being home :) sometimes it feels like hes never left..like hes been here all along. it just seems so perfect *sigh*
danielle has been coming over a lot..i figured i would be really jealous and all of him giving his attention to her but i'm really not. i guess since i've seen him i can understand more..i mean they havent seen each other in 10 months. right now they are watching white chicks haha

i cant wait till tomorrow! yay! it will be tons of fun..always is. nothing better than christmas eve at grandmother and pops's house with the whole family *happy sigh* i'm also excited about mashed potatoes and ham...yeah kinda strange i know

so i'm kinda starting to worry what will happen when sunday comes and michael has to leave. i hope i dont get all depressed again. ok i'm just not gonna think about it till it comes. hows that?

today is the day!!

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 01:10:24 GMT

well nothing that exciting has happened yet since i've been out of school..other than my stay with the lovely lamberts. but i left all of my good cds at their house so i've been stuck with country and bsb cds for 3 days! ahh i'm dying here without my bright eyes and coldplay!

so today i was driving to the dentist and there was quite a bit of traffic...more than i'm used to driving in...so my mom was freaking out and yelling at me and then i started to yell back at her and it just wasnt very fun. i almost had a nervous breakdown in the middle of the highway...ok well not really..i'm not even sure if it was a highway either. ha shows how much i know

my mother attempted to make fudge today...but seems to have failed. she burned it. its quite funny actually...although we cant really eat it

well i finished all my christmas shopping yesterday. and now i am left with 7 dollars...yeah not so good. but i am taking care of my neighbors cat for 6 days so that should get me some good money

tomorrow we have to leave for tullahoma which is in middle tn. i'm not that excited about it because its going to take up 2 of the 4 days michael is here

speaking of michael! in about 2 hours his plane should be landing here in knoxville! i'm so excited...i feel like being a little kid and jumping off of a roof and trying to fly..and if i dont fly i wont care cause mikeys coming home for christmas!

well thats about all for tonight
merry christmas everyone!

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 17:40:06 GMT

well the black and white affair wasnt all that great..but hanging out with alli kristin deidre alex and jay was loads of fun! except for all the deodorant i managed to get on my dress and not getting to see will OR little mike...

friday night i went over to jessica and sarahs house to spend the night. we watched white chicks and the bourne identity. let me just say that i am in love with matt damon. sarah and i stayed up till about 3 a.m. we fell asleep watching dirty dancing havana nights(our favorite!). saturday we woke up around 11-ish. lisa made us irish pancakes yum! so me and jessica went to the mall around 1 and did some christmas shopping...well, i did some for myself. hey i was gonna buy michael a shirt but i thought it was kinda ugly so i bought myself some jeans(which i desperately needed) and a tshirt that was only 10 dollars. oh yeah and some shoes for 4 dollars! jessica and i were driving around listening to her "pimpette cd" and dancin in the car. it was great! good times good times...
oh and i did get to see a jessica fall. no visit to knoxville is complete without jessica falling

dont you hate it when you like someone that you know you have no chance with...?

only 3 more days till mikey comes home! i'm so happy i could just burst! well at least i will be for a few days..