[01 Jul 2006|12:08am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Everything's Right- Matt Wertz ] 4 hours and i'll be on my way to DCLA! pretty much. i've just been sitting here the last hour or so listening to music and eating ramen noodles (i made them the "right way" tonight deej). i'm starting to feel really sick cause i wasnt too hungry to begin with. but since i dont really get to eat 3 normal meals a day i just keep eating till i go to bed or something. not really but whatev. so this last week or so me and deej have been hanging out with josh and jr a lot. which has turned out to be really good :). even thought josh is going to camp for 3 weeks now. crazy crazy! this weekend will be really fun and i'm glad i'll be taking a break from work. gah its getting so annoying! i love all this new music!!!!!! ok well i think i'm gonna stop eating and probably go call josh or something. oh yeah but i forgot to say that me and deej went to sundown last night which was ok. we saw cam who was being rude but i dont really care anymore. but we did see ben and cole as well and hung out with them until we left early and went to see josh again. then we went to coles house to hang out with him and ben and cliff for like 2 seconds. yeah so thats about all! bye! post comment

[19 Jun 2006|11:32pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | ben harper ] i love ben harper so now that i cant go to bed any time before 1 or 2 in the morning i'm probably going to be updating in this thing a little bit more. and i'm ok with that. its good therapy or something. plus since deej has been gone i havent had anyone to hang out with cause no one thinks to call me. or even seems to want to hang out with me. today was my first day of work and it went well. not too stressful. i'm just glad i have tomorrow off cause i'm so tired. at least it will make the week go by faster. i was thinking tonight that summer is almost halfway over which is CRAZY. i still have to finish my apush summer reading and it takes me like a day to read 2 pages! i like history but not american history. sorry. i wish i didnt worry about school when i'm not even in it right now. ahhh so anyways i think i'm gonna go get a capri sun or something. maybe a little snack 1 comment|post comment

[11 Jun 2006|01:02am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | let down-radiohead ] i havent updated in years but i decided that i really need to vent (which is basically what livejournal is for) but its almost 1:00 so i cant call anyone cause i dont want to wake whoever i chose to call. but yeah i'm really frustrated and confused and sad...but at least i have one thing to be happy about. that, however, is complicated as well. what i really want to do is call a person and just bitch and say grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr because its this persons fault that i'm feeling all these things. i need to talk to someone about something (sorry i'm not using any names) but i dont know if i will even be able to because i just have trouble saying things that i really dont want to say. a lot of people do, right? so i'm guessing that not many people will read this because i stopped using it so long ago but that is a good thing cause i really dont want anyone to read it. but you know that feeling where you just have to say something no matter who its to or where you write it down?? yeah thats why i wrote this. but whatevvvvvvvv. i'm guessing its kind of obvious how tired i am cause i'm just rambling. on a happier note i have had a very fun weekend which is good :) 1 comment|post comment

arghhhhh [05 Nov 2005|06:49pm] [ mood | annoyed ] so i have nothing to do and i was just reading a bunch of other's livejournals and they were really getting on my nerves cause all we really use these fucking things for is to complain! ahh its so annoying! yes i do realize i am complaining too but fuck it 1 comment|post comment

i need some new cds cause i'm sick of listening to my old ones [21 Sep 2005|05:38pm] [ mood | blah ] i should be working on my english homework..but i havent read livejournals in forever and after reading them i decided to update. i'm so good at procrastinating :) oh and english is getting better..i enjoy it somewhat. today was a so-so day. the talent show was pretty awesome-everyone was great. i'm glad tomorrow is thursday cause then it will be friday and then it will be saturday and me and deej are going shopping! at west town! and we have NO money! but the bad thing about tomorrow is that i have a geometry test and i seem to be having some trouble in that class. oh well. our orchestra concert is next tuesday eek! everyone should be looking pretty stylish in the new dresses yeah! i'm having confused/mixed emotions..but everything is going to work out and i will be fine..fall break is in 2 weeks. 3 comments|post comment

[02 Sep 2005|09:55pm] [ mood | sleepy ] wow so i havent updated in FOREVER! i'm sittin here at jimmys house. i have to leave soon. blah dont want to go home i'm soo very happy its a 4 day weekend but i have a paper to write and some music to practice for orchestra. school is really stressing me out this year. i hate english with a passion umm i dont really have anything else to talk about. no one would want to read it. I LOVE YOU JIMMY! 2 comments|post comment

[30 Apr 2005|11:45pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | the decemberists-of angels and angles ] There are angels in your your angles. There's a low moon caught in your tangles. There's a ticking at the sill There's a purr of a pidgeon to break the still of day As long we go drowning, down we go away And darling, We go drowning. Down we go away. Away. There's a tough word, on your crossword. There's a bed bug nipping a finger. There's a swallow, there's a calm Here's a hand to lay on your open palm today. As long we go drowning, down we go away. And darling, We go drowning. Down we go away. Away. There are angels in your angles. There's a low moon caught in your tangles. today turned out to be a wonderful day :) i love you so much jimmy! 1 comment|post comment

[27 Apr 2005|06:17pm] [ mood | upset ] [ music | something corporate-konstantine ] yesterday was 3 months for jimmy and i! :) :) this whole month has been kinda different for me. i havent felt as happy as usual and i think i've cried at least 2 or 3 times a week. but what scares me is that i dont know why i cry. i dont know why i get so upset. the smallest things have been getting to me and i feel like i'm ruining things because of my bitchy attitude. i dont want to ruin things at all. i want them to stay just the way they were before my whole freakin month of pms came along. i'm really sorry if i've made things worse between us i love you jimmy 2 comments|post comment

[15 Apr 2005|09:43pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | damien rice *in my head* ] wahoo! talkin to deidre on the phone! i havent updated in forever. i'm sittin here at jimmys house..i love him, love him, love him. so anyways, i went to a soccer game tonight. maryville won. yeah i sure was excited ha. but jimmy played really well tonight! prom is next week..i hope its fun and i hope my face doesnt look like shit as it has been for the past week or so. ok tomorrow is gonna be a fun day. i have to work out at the building for about 3 hours building that stupid fence.(thats not the fun part..except for getting paid) then i'm gonna go pick up deidre and heather and we're going to heathers house to hang out for a while. i havent been there in months so i'm really excited about that. good memories at her house *sigh*. later that night we are going to west town for a while and then back to heathers to spend the night(maybe. still havent asked). on sunday me deidre jimmy and alex are probably gonna go to the park and play tennis for a while. i'm starting to love that sport..even though i really suck at it. my first lesson with deidre didnt go so well. but thats ok. ok so thats all i feel like saying tonight *i love you* 4 comments|post comment

[27 Mar 2005|10:52am] [ mood | cheerful ] so today is easter and its a beautiful day outside. i'm loving it. i hope this easter is better than last years. i'm sure it will be cause mikeys home! :) so about my weekend on friday i woke up around 9 and called jimmy to wake him up just to be mean heh heh. actually i didnt mean to wake him up *sorry jimmy* but anyways he came over and we sat and waited for michael and danielle to come home cause the 4 of us were going to go up to gatlinburg for the day. we waited forever and finally left at like 130 or 2..i cant remember exactly. but anyways, the drive up there was beautiful. i swear it took about 2 hours to get there though! when we finally did, we ate at subway yum. they had one of those claw machines in there and the 4 of us spent about 7 dollars trying to get stuff out of it. jimmy got me the stuffed bunny that i wanted :) we just kinda walked around for a while until we got to the place with the mechanical bull, which michael had to ride. it was pretty funny! he did a good job too. then he made jimmy ride it..oh gosh. haha he actually stayed on it for a long time too. ah! i was sooooo close to beating him at pool but he had to go and knock the 8 ball in with his hand(on accident). so we're just gonna say that i won anyways..cause i would have ;) on our way home we stopped at jimmy's grandparents house and rode the 4 wheelers. michael got on this little one that jimmy's 10 year old cousin uses. it was so funny watching him on that thing. it was like the clowns in the circus that ride those little bikes. haha me and danielle just stood there cracking up the whole time. we actually got to talk about some stuff..normally we dont have real conversations. i really enjoyed it. friday was such a good day :) *i love you* last night danielles parents invited us out to dinner at this place called Mango. the food was..interesting. but it was still good. danielles mom gave me 20 dollars for eating a mussel! it was awesome! i got to meet danielles sisters nancy and terry. i really liked nancy. shes so different from anyone i've ever met. so anyways, we ate for about 3 hours..i got incredibly bored and wanted to come home to spend time with jimmy before he had to go home. but it didnt work out :( i'm hoping hes gonna come over today before he goes climbing ok well thats all i guess. 4 comments|post comment

[18 Mar 2005|10:53pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | konstantine-something corporate ] so i havent updated in awhile..i guess i'll start with thursday after school my mom and i left for summerville, south carolina to visit my cousins. on friday we went to charleston and did some shopping..i found my prom dress yay! saturday we went shopping again in mt. pleasant. it reminded me so much of the beach trips and of sarah. i miss her so much but at least shes having fun. it was soooo beautiful in summerville. i really wish i could live there. it was great to see kelsey and sean again..and jenny and brian of course. haha their dog roscoe was adorable! he always came and sat with me on the couch :) we came home on sunday..i was ready to come home. i missed jimmy too much :/ and i had some pretty bad dreams while i was there.. i just got back from nashville today. my mom and i went shopping again so i'm pretty much broke. but i did get a lot of new clothes yay! michael is home for about a week now. and guess what he did...got a tatoo. yeah thats right. its a cross with the date 3-1-04 written inside of it. thats the day he left for rehab. hes been gone for more than a year. its hard for me to believe..i'm really glad hes home now i've been with jimmy every day that we have been in town. its been wonderful :) i'm gonna hate going back to school now cause we wont get to be together as much. i have a feeling that this summer with him will be wonderful too. *i love you* 4 comments|post comment

[09 Feb 2005|08:22pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | they cant take that away from me *thanks al! ] so i havent updated in a while..normally all my entries are depressing but i've been really happy lately so i guess i just havent had anything to complain about! things with jimmy are still going good :):) haha i've gotten him addicted to the oc now..its great! i went home with him today..we went and sat on his hammock for a little while and that was really relaxing :) yeah, except for when he just about pushed me off..on to the concrete..would have hurt. well sarah left for australia yesterday :( she'll be back at the end of july..i already miss her. i got to spend all weekend with her though(except friday night) so that was VERY fun and entertaining. especially singing dirty dancing songs in the car..oh good times, good times. and sitting in the target parking lot eating jelly bellys..which happened to make us sick. mikey is coming home for a visit this weekend! he'll get here late tomorrow night..i'm pretty pumped about that!i think hes taking me to school on friday haha. hes also gonna be coming to the valentines concert on sunday..we sound terrible by the way..and then he has to leave right after its over. but we should have a good time! so my car is not going to be going to montana after all! yes! just thought i'd let ya know.. well thats all i feel like saying tonight! sleep well 3 comments|post comment

wonderful day [29 Jan 2005|09:07pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | *singing to myself* ] today was one of the best days i've had in a LONNNNNNGGGG time. all thanks to jimmy :) let me share it with you! so i woke up this morning and went to a climbing competition in knoxville with jimmy. i really had a good time! we left around 230 and went back to his house for a while :) he just about tickled me to death and i kinda kicked him in the nose..sorry bout that! but soon he had to take me back home cause today is pops's bday and we were having a little party at my house. so we pulled into my driveway and there was a very nice surprise...my car! i love it! so i drove jimmy around the neighborhood in it..ha probably scared him a bit. i swear i'm a good driver! well anyways we got back and sarah had arrived so i drove her around too. yeah then we ate supper and cake and had a wonderful time! ahh i loved today. i wish it could happen all over again.. thank you for making me so happy jimmy :):) 4 comments|post comment

grrrrrrrrrr [23 Jan 2005|01:09pm] [ mood | hurt ] [ music | something pretty-patrick park ] this weekend didnt turn out like i hoped it would. sarah became very ill so i couldnt go over there as planned and i've been stuck at home, just me and my dad, doing nothing. i hope you feel better soon sarah! so yesterday i did something that i thought would be good for me..but i regret it now. i really dont know what to do. i'm very unhappy today. maybe a milkshake would help. i guess i'll go make one and see. tomorrow i have a test in math..hoping i wont fail it. we have 3 quizzes in spanish this week, also. that should be mucho divertido. hace frio hoy. (yeah, pretty sure thats wrong..) 20 degrees well...i forgot what else i was going to say. damn. i really cant wait till my mom comes home tomorrow. shes been in montana with michael. its warmer out there than it is here. crazy, huh? soooo..thats all i have to say. 3 comments|post comment

its all about the family.. [12 Jan 2005|08:45pm] [ mood | missing the old days... ] [ music | lola stars and stripes-the stills ] i miss going to the beach every summer and renting a huge beach house with the WHOLE family. i miss kiteboy(i'm sure you do too, sarah) i miss the boardwalk i miss being crazy and rhyming every word said with jessica and sarah i miss sitting by the pool and watching jessica attempt to pole dance at night i miss the little ice cream shop on the boardwalk that we went to everyday i miss playing balderdash at night i miss going out to eat, having to wait forever, and getting really pissed off i miss that drive to target with michael jessica and sarah..sunroof and windows open, music turned up as loud as it could go, me and sarah dancing in the back seat i miss buying matching towels and feeling stupid after we did it(cause why would we want the same towel) i miss rolling michael and conors room i miss getting sunburned and being made fun of by everyone i miss staying up late at night talking about typical girl stuff i miss seeing michael happy to be with the family(he is now, it was just those summers that were great..) i miss mine and sarahs beach songs i miss the long drives to the beach with jessica and sarah i miss stopping at some bbq place to meet up with kelsey sean jenny and brian i miss the crazy/gross yellow bbq sauce they had i miss laying out on the beach with my music i miss getting stuck in the elevator we had in one of our houses i miss the excitment of first getting to our different house each summer i miss those weeks away from home i wish we could go back... 2 comments|post comment

[09 Jan 2005|08:33pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | the standard (i think) ] well my room is now finished and all that stuff..i like it, but it doesnt really look all that different to me..except the color and all. oh well i had fun painting with deidre and alli anyways. today deidre and i went to play tennis. ha! that was a sight to see! deidre managed to fall..i have no clue how..it was just kinda random haha. but we did get better i think! it was tons of fun anyways. so after we played for like an hour, we walked up to texico and then to her church and went to youth. it was fun to see ben and robb. they just make me laugh! alli i dont know why you werent there! you should have been! sick, were we? i know how that one works ;) ugh tomorrow i have to go back to school. i do NOT want to. not even just a little bit. i'm too tired to think about it right now plus it just angers me. what also angers me is my dad. ok so i'm 2 rooms away and i can hear him chewing. honestly you have to agree that its not normal to chew that loud. yeah, i know, i'm being a bitch about it. so thats all i feel like saying tonight 1 comment|post comment

[07 Jan 2005|09:46pm] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | bsb, nsync, blink 182 (yeah we're cool!) ] well hey there! so today has been very exciting...well at least it has been after school. deidre came home with me and then we went to home depot to just, ya know, hang out and stuff. actually we went to get paint cause we are painting my room!! yeah so i think we got some pretty hot pictures there..with the washing machine and the refridgerator. so then we went to the soup kitchen and deidre spilled her tea EVERYWHERE! or at least on her tray. and THEN!!! we went to food lion to get tons of food..and some cool mexican drinks. really they're mexican! hm yeah so we also got some energy drinks cause we have to get up early to paint tomorrow morning. omgah and then the funniest thing happened! so anyways, we got home and got to work..sorta. we have been painting and listenin to some BSB!!! yeah, kinda sad cause we know like every word.. well i think we're gonna go watch some of the oc now and eat of course..so maybe, if you're lucky, we will update some more later much love! 1 comment|post comment

home improvement meets girls gone wild... [04 Jan 2005|08:38pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | desaparecidos ] today alli came home with me after school cause we were gonna go to springbrook and work out...but we decided to be lazy so we watched napolean dynamite. "yeah we chat online for like 2 hours..so i guess you could say things are gettin pretty serious.." haha it was great. and then we ate, as usual, and then went to tear down all the flowery shit in my room. yeah so heres the story i have this lattice/flower stuff nailed on my wall above my window and i was up on a chair with a hammer pulling it down. it was nailed in there pretty good so i yanked it really hard and it came out really fast so i screamed, dropped the hammer, and fell out of my chair onto my bed. during this alli was talking to matti on the phone and she screamed really loud and hung up on him..so yeah it was pretty exciting. i also fell like 3 other times and hit my head really hard on some sharp corner.. oh yeah and we listened to some snoop..when da pimps in da crib ma!!! yeah but thats pretty much all the excitement i've had since i started going back to school. ugh i hate it! especially wellness cause coach summey is an asshole. yeah plus i just hate gym, always have. oh and spanish is really really boring..i made a complete idiot out of myself in there today, but i tend to do that a lot yeah i'm tired so thats all i have to say for tonight sleep well everyone.. 3 comments|post comment

sorry...i just cant help it [30 Dec 2004|09:25pm] [ mood | sad/mad ] [ music | *singing to myself* ] well most of my day was fun. me and deidre went to knoxville and had a wonderful time shopping...of course who wouldnt have fun shopping?! yes, we were very proud of ourselves for all that we had accomplished today. tonight i went over to my grandparents house for another dinner with the whole fam. my cousins from SC are here so it was fun to get to see them. i suppose i ruined everyones night though by my bad mood(according to my mom). she also said i tend to do that a lot...and there was really no use in me trying to explain why because usually she just tells me that my reason is stupid. yeah, thats my family for you..gotta love em. ha, right..? i think part of the reason i was in a bad mood tonight is because it was the whole family, minus michael. i wish he could have stayed i am excited about tomorrow night. i hope its fun thats all i feel like saying tonight(i wont bitch any longer, sorry) 2 comments|post comment

ahhhhhhh [28 Dec 2004|05:36pm] [ mood | enraged ] i swear i'm gonna take the car and run over my dads stupid little bike until its in a million tiny pieces and he can never ride that piece of shit again ok i was hoping that would help..but it didnt 3 comments|post comment

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